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So I've been having a long distance relationship with this amazing girl from Florida. She has been having a real hard time keeping her head above water. I talked her out of suicide and cutting twice each in just two weeks along with trying to talk her out of bulemia and anorexia. As we both cried over a Skype video chat today I realized that I am not good enough to keep her happy. I love her and I don't want to lose her but she just can't get ahold of herself. If we lived closer to eachother it would be so much easier but we don't. She had to reject her best friend's plea for her to date him and she is insanely worried for him because he is at rock bottom. I have also had someone ask me to date them but she is friendzoned by me although I do think I would date her if I was single at the moment. I also have to deal with keeping THIS girl from cutting because her parents are planning on fileing a divorce soon. I'm just under a lot of pressure right now with finals and even more friends cutting at school. Idk where to turn and I am not strong enough to keep this up for much longer. I don't want to relapse because i have been considering it recently but overall I am just scared for my friends and girlfriend...

comments and advice are appreciated
thanks guys, ur awesome

My parents keep getting pissed at me. I'll be on my phone texting all day long so they take it and go through the messages. Then when they find out I've been trying to save my best friends from suicide or cutting themselves they get mad. HOW IS SAVING LIVES BAD??? I've saved about 8 lives so far. If my parents keep it up the number will stay there and I'll have to helplessly watch everyone around me die and that would eventually end up with my own head blown off too. They apparently want me to be alone surrounded by the coffins of my loved ones. Where's the logic in that?

Last week our relationship seemed to be doing fine. She said she didn't want it to end but now it has...I'm sorry but I'll probably relapse into cutting tonight.

I'm struggling

Hey guys, I'm working on a poem and I feel like it's coming REALLY well. I'll post it in a few days maybe bc I got writers block :/ just wanted to let y'all know.